Glad to be back! I've been going through a whirlwind of stress and I coped with it by sleeping it off, keeping myself busy, and avoiding the writing about it deal...needless to say, it doesn't work..ha. So here I am!
This however, isn't necessarily about stress. I was supposed to write this on Valentine's day but I was too pissy...(another story altogether).
I'm gunna get a little mushy...female style cause I think it's a great topic and it's what females (ALL females) do and look forward to: love.
Where do I even start? I believe most people want it...badly. But many are scared by it...as was I. Love is one of the most powerful emotions a human can feel...it was my #1 fear....hands down. In part, I believe it had to do with my experiences with friends. Before the weirdo I'm with now, I hadn't had a boyfriend. While all my friends were out with their boyfriends (or partners...) I was at home, studying, watching tv, being a sheltered nerd. I hated to have those talks with friends about break ups and what not...I was always there to cheer them up or talk about everything...thus I learned from them, but I also built walls to let no one in. I didn't want to hurt like them...and it made me hate the idea of having a boyfriend just to break up when I truly become emotionally attached.
I started my first relationship when I was 19 and it was the BEST feeling in the world to have someone other than close friends and family care about you and WANT to be with you. Just a tad update on that relationship: we're still chuggin along ;-)
Nonetheless when he told me for the first time he loved me and I knew he meant it, my fears of love was lifted. In the end I realized you can't live in fear...you gotta take risks, take chances. If it doesn't work out, it just makes you stronger. Of course, everyone fears having a broken heart, but you cannot live in fear.
In the end, cherish love, do not fear it, embrace it. Love with everything you have...
A few quotes that I love:
--"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."
--"To love is like to love -- all the reason is against it, and all healthy instince for it."
--"Love is patient; love is kind; it does not envy; it does not boast; it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking; it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always hopes, always perserveres. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. Love never fails." -I Corinthians 13:4-8
To be continued...
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